Don't Ignore Me

I'm your future wife.

I'm

sure laid back.
Don't easily get embarrassed.
Don't recognize awkwardness.
Don't talk a lot when it's not necessary.
I'm thoughtful.

It comes off boring.
I guess

Thanksgiving Break

Thank God.
School and everything that comes with it is getting really stressful.

Everyone just left (or are leaving tomorrow) so it is quiet and nice.
I am currently blaring 'I Would Do Anything For Love' oh sweet Meatloaf...

Anyway, I guess I am going home too, aaaaallll the way home.
I packed my life for my five minute trip ha

Well tomorrow I get the house completely to myself while the folks are at work and the youngin is at school, so I am going to get up, do yoga (bringing my mat), watch aladdin, do laundry, eat! you know, stuff...
maybe walk around naked
ha!
I am bringing both my Whitworth sweatshirt and mug because honestly I am really proud to be going here, I feel like I am bragging when I say I do, I love that I go to such a great school, I just still don't know if I should be here.

The ONE thing I look forward to most in life is getting married and making my husband happy, and being happy with him, traveling with him... I just don't look passed that, that's all I want, I don't want kids, I don't want a big house with a fence and a dog, I want a husband and I want to spend all the time I can with him.

I need to write, I have so many lines all over my notebooks and in my planner, saved in my phone, on my hands, in my head, I need to put them together, I NEED something and I don't know what!

I am trying to figure way too many things out and I am starting to think for myself a lot less. (I'm not even fully myself on here cause my dad reads it... hi dad!...)

Damnit.

On the bright side, my sister said it looks like I am losing weight :)

One day I will be here.

fasting

day two.

I just found

a document on my comp that said

"We stay in our own little world"

and that's it.




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(new coffee mug, beautiful, I know)

Kind of scared

people have been talking about for some time now that the world is going to end in 2012.

I thought about it and kind of shrugged it off I guess but now..

now that Obama may (very possibly) become the next president, and 2012 would be his last year serving, I'm starting to believe.

and it frighens me a bit.

On Halloween

I feel bad for the kids that have bad parents all the time, but especially on Halloween.
Think about it, the young stupid parents that still want to get wasted all the time, probably do, especially on Halloween, and their kids want to go trick-or-treating, but they can't cause their folks are too busy getting smashed!
Hopefully they have good grandparents that want to take them out to do those things.


one of my four costumes that night.