once again

I feel like I have no friends. I don't want any comments on this one. And I don't want to talk to anyone about this.

the voxxx

called me tonight and wanted me to visit huckleberries online blog and then email erin (the guy in charge) and tell him if i have any ideas-what i thought about the blog-and if i were interested! wooooooooooohooooooo and pretty much its all because i have a blog account on here :D:D yay yay i really really hope this works out

now walk it out

i dont remember what i said in my last post-but frankly i am too lazy to check.

just got back from the DQ-my last day was sat. and im already in there again.
to see bre
luckily chris was there too
and luckily sara wasnt

silverwood friday! im excitedddddd

i figured out what i want to do for my 18th:
drive to seattle with a few friends and stay in the westin-hopefully that would work-and just hang out-have a ball maybe :D

im not sure exactly who i am going to take though.. so far.. bre lol

i need to go camping soon

i wish my parents would just let me hang out with the guys.
like camp with some friends and if there were guys there that they would trust that nothing would happy-that isnt going to happen though. not for a while at least.

hung out with cassie last night-i really really wish there was something that i could do for her and kyle-but there really isnt much other than prayer.



i miss her.

i miss a lot of people-and now that i dont have a job i hope before i find a new one that i have time for old friends.

i want a job that i am going to have fun at
not looking good so far though.

the whiteboard in my kitchen that held my schedule is almost all white-
the bright red of my name
days of the week all shortened in green
and the faint blue streaks of my life.

i want friends. to keep.

im going to call mallissa soon

why do i feel so busy when i dont even have a job?!
yet i feel so bored.

title (and registration please)

so i worked with sara today and we didnt speak a word to eachother-thankfully

i really hope the rest of this week/this weekend works out
i hope we hang out at bres on friday night
i miss herrrrrr

and i hope we arent super slammed on sat night

i hope cas and i hang out with ethan
its nice spending time with my sisters-jen and i hang out all the time-but cas and i went shopping and out to dinner tonight

ive been jealous kind of a lot lately-sin

i really shouldnt be

i know this is really lame but i want to find a job where i can meet a great guy-like christian supply-good guys come in there :D

whatever
i dont even know what to talk about
im tired
have to babysit tomorrow
have to work tomorrow
hang out with ethan tomorrow?

"baby im bad news"

kitty died
quit the DQ

thats it.

oh and bre is out of town

halluh

drink sunny d
:D

should have went to bed earlier

my sister woke me up and asked me to go upstairs with her-idk what was wrong with me but i flew up.
she said she had a bad dream and wanted to make sure jennifer was still here/ok.
weirdo.

when we went back downstairs she had the courtesy to tell me that she was hearing something from upstairs that sounded like it was dragging across the floor-obviously she does not take into consideration how my brian works! or maybe she doesnt really know-im scared to tell my family most of the time-im almost afraid theyll think im crazy? even though i think i am-and i wouldnt mind going to a crazy home hah

anyway-i stayed up thinking of 4 million different things it could be-but then i just convinced myself it was the computer or fridge-somehoe-and then i prayed asking God to be with me and to calm me so that i could get some rest-He did :D

so then i had to wake up at 8something and take jennifer to school-so now im up-and might just watch some music videos since i have cable now :]
not as cool as bre having a laptop n all but whatev-close second hah

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lol-colton and i used to do that when we were dating-thought of it ourselves :D

on my way home from work

i saw something really strange.
i even stopped.
backed up.
and tried to figure it out.
and understand the screaming

long

I'm at Mt spokanes graduation right now starts at 5 and then waiting here for meads which starts at 8-oh dear-good thing I have this phone to entertain me-my head is killing me-i took meds this morning and not too long ago-i even wore my glasses today nothing works-i just want to scream for Cassie and leave lol kels and bubba are sitting a couple rows in front of me-im going to regret not saying hello to ryan- McKenzie is a couple rows down to the left also. Jennifer is not fun company-i wish Daniel could have come. Emily just sat down with kels she has lost way too much weight. Ice been working out lately-i love it. I want to be a foreign exchange student. Discussion with Brian last night-pretty strange-well someone just texted me so I'm out

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not even worth explaining

i do!

sometimes dont you wish when something embarrising happens that someone was around cause then have someone to laugh with and at you-instead of laughing at yourself wishing someone were there..?

pie before lunch

corresponds very nicely with my diet

so does licking the plate clean

:]

sick of it

just got out of the shower.
still wrapped in my lime green towel.

i try to distract myself with music but then i just think about what i cant hear.

i close my eyes and let the water pour down my face-but then i dont want to open them.

ready for the summa

i guess it has been a while since i posted.. not a lot to say though.

lindsey is going to start coming to church with me and i am reaaaaaaaally excited!

bre said she is going to come when she wants too.. i am veeery excited for that as well.

i understood most of the math today-i think i might do my homework since i have NO plans tonight.

it feels like thursday-idk why.

i feel like i am wanting to rebel lately-like i have the urge to drink n other stuff-idk its REALLY weird-at least i dont actually do it though.

my goals for the summer:
-make a lot of money
-make time for friends
-see a lot of people
-find a bf [and not just any guy-i have standards]
-camp! a lotish
-find a date to my sisters wedding
-visit seattle
-fish?
-look into colleges
-tan
-lose weight
-make memoriessss :D

thats not too much right?
it may be if i stay at the dq.

the lightning was pretty cool last night, i just wish they never turned my backyard into 456887952 houses. it kinds blocks the view. im liking this gloomy weather cause i prefer jackets & sweaters-but i am still very ready for summer. i just need to go shopping.

no comment

I'm posting from my phone!
So at work tonight I was in a very upset mood and I'm not completly sure why, actually I think I am.
A couple things that I don't feel like talking to anyone about..
Chris and bre put me in a better mood though, Chris said he likes when I laugh:)
tomorrow I have a meeting at 830 work at 930 and church at 6 excitinggg

day dream nightmares

theyre worst in the shower

it takes me a while to open the shower door because im never ready for what im expecting to see behind the glass door. or what im not going to see in the steamed room.

im seeing life as a nightmare? literally-and unfortunately

eff you, you hoe, i dont want you back

(that songs stuck in my head-edited and everything)

there were highs and lows for bre's house last night

by the time i was in bed though all the lows were hitting me and i couldnt sleep because i was actually crying-which was weird-cause it was not worth crying over-at all-thats just me i guess-a big fat baby.

im upset with a couple people right now..some people just dont understand-even when i put it right in there face-i lay it down exactly how it is-it goes in one ear-and before there is time to process-right out the other. idiots. seriously.

i have a bbq in a few hours-i need to shower-i smell like campfire.

i work at 3 technically but not going til 5-2 hours late isnt bad for an 8 hour day-we are going to be slammed.

im excited to work with bre and chris? idk about linds..i found her bra in my backseat today-it made me laugh.

im going to wash myself