But, I still cry

I have never broken up with a guy who I so badly wanted to be with.

Of the traits and qualities I look for in a guy,
you are so perfect in so many ways.
But in so many
important
ways,
you aren't.
And I think this is so hard for me
because so badly
I just wanted you to be that guy
who had them all
or at least even most
and because I can't make that happen
and you're not willing to try to make it happen
it might make it a little easier to get over
but I still cry
at the idea that you don't care enough
and when I think about you holding me