always

i really miss being in a relationship-bad.
im talking to jacob about it.
well we're more talking about his situation, but it's nice to really talk to him again.
im glad he is somewhat opening up to me.
i wonder a lot if he ever reads this.
but i usually doubt it.
who knows though
who cares
well.. i do hah

the guy i like ive liked-
for a while.. but i think i like the guy he used to be.
not the drinker he has become.

i really just miss everything about having a bf, you know? the holding hands, the kisses, the smiles, so many little things, sometimes i wish i had never experienced it.

i have listened to joseph arthur's "in the sun" just about 458736 tonight.
i really miss being able to download music.

congrats to bre-getting a poem published :D
we should start a published poets club and meet and read our new poems, and give eachother advice.

i watched "on the lot" tonight
i really enjoyed it.
i love independent films

i have to go into school at 9ish to get some things figured out.
then work 12-5
wednesday days kind of suck.

i hope it storms tomorrow.
and doesnt stop all day, and all night.

"I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May gods love be with you
Always
May gods love be with you"